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Fountain of Love
Post from the past 6. Somewhere I belong to the desert land, anywhere else I can’t find the thirst to understand what love is. Because love is like water, it’s so rare in the desert that it makes me more grateful when I finally find the fountain within myself. If I lost myself and my heart, I’ll not bow down and feel defeated but stay strong and keep the faith. Look at the sky; many clouds could go awry in a blink of an eye, make raindrops fall slowly down the earth, but still, the sky stay the same. Who can be sure of what tomorrow might bring, and who…
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The Choice I Make
The 22nd letter to you. All the hiding makes the heart anxious, all the secrets make it heavy. The world is how it is, and I need to learn it’s okay as it is, instead of looking through the filter of the mind. Sometimes I want to talk freely without concealment, but people tend to judge and criticize, it’s hard to stay open and honest without lying. This world can be hard sometimes, and I want to shut out all the darkness that tries to penetrate through the cracks of my mind. Stillness is difficult with a mind full of negativity and endless nagging. How do I live? Sometimes I…
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Enough Is Enough
The 21st letter to you. Everything feel so wrong once I feel my anxiety roars at me; my body feels wrong, my hair seems odd, my face imperfect and so on. Why is that? The only thing I could do is to sit still in silence and meditate instead of distracting myself from the anxiety. The only way out is to sit with my anxiety and feel it to release and understand why, and through letting go of the thoughts in my mind that trip me off that I could truly feel calm and peace. It’s to see the truth straight in the face instead of being afraid of meeting…
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Affection On My Fingertips
The 14th love letter to my, Twin Ray. To hear you say “I love you” is strangely distant to me. I have never once thought that words could be piling up and that my stomach knot itself in distress. I look past the dawn and see the sunrise on the horizon. You are gone, but I’m still here waiting for you to appear like a shooting star I can wish upon. I don’t fight in a war, but why do this feels like I am battling? Emotions disrupt my peace and exceeding numerous time from nowhere. I guess I can’t hide them under the rug and call it a day,…
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The Eternal Flame
The 20th letter to you. Once again I stand up from the ashes after the fire burned me, the flames that tempered my soul seared and smith me like a sharp sword; the eternal flame. You see, nothing is impossible if your mind is strong enough to endure hardship and suffering, at least not when you have a burning wish or desire to fulfill. When I find myself ascending to a higher dimension, and understand what I needed, I don’t mind being put back in the “cage,” being under surveillance or forced to be medicate to eventually get my freedom, because all those are only illusions. I accept and willingly…
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How Do I Let Go?
The 13th love letter to my, Twin Ray. Beloved, With all my frustration I don’t know what else to do but to slowly letting go and as much as I want the gap between us to shorten and with the interlude of our heartbeats I still hope it will beat in unison someday. I either sleep too much or stay up all night; there’s nothing in between. Sleep doesn’t come easy, but once I lay down on my pillow with eyes closed thoughts of you appear in a parade and demonstrate themselves like memories in mine mind. How can I let go when your fire still burns within my soul?…
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Because of You
The 12th love letter to my, Twin Ray. Hey, Are you tired of all the love letters I have written to you? I know you won’t likely respond, but still, I can’t hold myself back from writing. The sweetest note, the romantic gesture. I just want to open my chest broader so you can take a look inside my heart, and see how it beats for you. It’s pounding like crazy when you are near. And when you are absent, it just sank and sank in deep yearning. I don’t know if it is wise of me to keep harboring feelings for you, but I can’t seem to erase all…
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The Light Within Us
Post from the past 5. The collective consciousness spilled over like madness, and everyone is in intense trauma ready to release their darkness. There are chaos and such horrified unpredictable actions towards one another. People get offended quickly, and no one wants to listen to the truth. Perhaps it’s not easy to wake up to the truth, that this world has many hidden secrets which revealed to the rest of the people who are still sleeping. I have been awake for a very long time. Everything started in 2011, and I have worked with my shadows over the past few years. I have learned to balance my darkness and light.…
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The Dance of Aurora
The 19th letter to you. Good morning, darling. Whoever you are, you are welcome to this blog and it’s my honor that you take your time to read all these letters I send to you and the world with all humanity. I’m one person doing her best to make a difference in this world, although being a 5’2 petite woman, my willpower is no less than anyone else. With time I learn to appreciate my weakness and made them my strength. Going from being extreme in everything I do to balance being and doing seamlessly. Even though challenges occur, and all the small things I did or do for my…
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Heaven on Earth
Post from the past 4. Why do you believe you are living on earth? You must open your eyes to see heaven and not hide in the illusion. The day and the night are like two sides of the same coin, defined, but you must know dreams doesn’t care if your eyes are shut asleep or open in the light. The road ahead may seem long, but eventually, you will see beyond the horizon where meadow and hills are rising to touch the sky. Climb the mountain or swim in the ocean, sit still or run, you will reach your destination in no time. Time doesn’t exist so why fear?…
"Perhaps the butterfly is proof that you can go through a great deal of darkness and still become something beautiful."
