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Fountain of Love
Post from the past 6. Somewhere I belong to the desert land, anywhere else I can’t find the thirst to understand what love is. Because love is like water, it’s so rare in the desert that it makes me more grateful when I finally find the fountain within myself. If I lost myself and my heart, I’ll not bow down and feel defeated but stay strong and keep the faith. Look at the sky; many clouds could go awry in a blink of an eye, make raindrops fall slowly down the earth, but still, the sky stay the same. Who can be sure of what tomorrow might bring, and who…
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The Choice I Make
The 22nd letter to you. All the hiding makes the heart anxious, all the secrets make it heavy. The world is how it is, and I need to learn it’s okay as it is, instead of looking through the filter of the mind. Sometimes I want to talk freely without concealment, but people tend to judge and criticize, it’s hard to stay open and honest without lying. This world can be hard sometimes, and I want to shut out all the darkness that tries to penetrate through the cracks of my mind. Stillness is difficult with a mind full of negativity and endless nagging. How do I live? Sometimes I…
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Enough Is Enough
The 21st letter to you. Everything feel so wrong once I feel my anxiety roars at me; my body feels wrong, my hair seems odd, my face imperfect and so on. Why is that? The only thing I could do is to sit still in silence and meditate instead of distracting myself from the anxiety. The only way out is to sit with my anxiety and feel it to release and understand why, and through letting go of the thoughts in my mind that trip me off that I could truly feel calm and peace. It’s to see the truth straight in the face instead of being afraid of meeting…
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Affection On My Fingertips
The 14th love letter to my, Twin Ray. To hear you say “I love you” is strangely distant to me. I have never once thought that words could be piling up and that my stomach knot itself in distress. I look past the dawn and see the sunrise on the horizon. You are gone, but I’m still here waiting for you to appear like a shooting star I can wish upon. I don’t fight in a war, but why do this feels like I am battling? Emotions disrupt my peace and exceeding numerous time from nowhere. I guess I can’t hide them under the rug and call it a day,…
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The Eternal Flame
The 20th letter to you. Once again I stand up from the ashes after the fire burned me, the flames that tempered my soul seared and smith me like a sharp sword; the eternal flame. You see, nothing is impossible if your mind is strong enough to endure hardship and suffering, at least not when you have a burning wish or desire to fulfill. When I find myself ascending to a higher dimension, and understand what I needed, I don’t mind being put back in the “cage,” being under surveillance or forced to be medicate to eventually get my freedom, because all those are only illusions. I accept and willingly…
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The Dance of Aurora
The 19th letter to you. Good morning, darling. Whoever you are, you are welcome to this blog and it’s my honor that you take your time to read all these letters I send to you and the world with all humanity. I’m one person doing her best to make a difference in this world, although being a 5’2 petite woman, my willpower is no less than anyone else. With time I learn to appreciate my weakness and made them my strength. Going from being extreme in everything I do to balance being and doing seamlessly. Even though challenges occur, and all the small things I did or do for my…
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Imperfection Perfect
The 18th letter to you. Dear, can you feel any change within you that reflects outward while the clock is ticking? With this year almost over, I feel empowered to be motivated and inspired by contemplating death that I become the ‘imperfection perfect’ human being after my stay at the buddhist monastery for 3 days. It was like finding scattered pieces of a jigsaw puzzle in my meditation and contemplation of death. The anxiety of swallowing solid food was my fear of death, and it was also because I was ignorant of how to express myself in my daily life that I become numb, paralyzed and tired. My anxiety to…
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Freedom Awaits.
The 15th letter to you. Dear readers, if I have any or anyone has read this blog. During my seclusion from writing and updating this blog, I have lived with novels for quite some time. I was obsessed, and my interest in reading peaked during this “lifelong” medication process from last year. I lost my creativity, and all my feelings were numb to the point I couldn’t feel emotional, leading me to stop creating altogether. It also made me think I was unsatisfied with my status quo. I want to change the status quo. I want to tear apart the walls that keep me from creating and living a life…
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Self-discovery through life.
My 12th letter to you. Life is a journey with a set of different experiences. Myriad of emotions intertwined with one incident. The simplicity here is to see life as an opportunity for self-discovery. We are the visitor of this Earth, and because we have been here so long, we have made Earth our home. So it’s natural to us to live a life here in harmony with each other and Earth. Sometimes we might do things that are not so beneficial for all, and we, for some reason, have forgotten that we are one; what we do to others, we do to ourselves. Yet, despite being one, we are…
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The pearl of enlightenment.
My 10th letter to you. Rise, don’t let the darkness from the world pull you back from the already taken steps towards your glorious future. Look towards the horizon, the sun rises every day, and no darkness is impossible to conquer. You and I might be individuals, but we have the same goal; peace and harmony. When you stumble on your path, remember that God never gives you anything you can’t handle. You are much stronger than you think, but even in weakness, you aren’t deemed to be unworthy, not by the heavenly company of God. Therefore you can trust your ability to change when you are ready to change.…
"Perhaps the butterfly is proof that you can go through a great deal of darkness and still become something beautiful."
