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The Choice I Make
The 22nd letter to you. All the hiding makes the heart anxious, all the secrets make it heavy. The world is how it is, and I need to learn it’s okay as it is, instead of looking through the filter of the mind. Sometimes I want to talk freely without concealment, but people tend to judge and criticize, it’s hard to stay open and honest without lying. This world can be hard sometimes, and I want to shut out all the darkness that tries to penetrate through the cracks of my mind. Stillness is difficult with a mind full of negativity and endless nagging. How do I live? Sometimes I…
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The Eternal Flame
The 20th letter to you. Once again I stand up from the ashes after the fire burned me, the flames that tempered my soul seared and smith me like a sharp sword; the eternal flame. You see, nothing is impossible if your mind is strong enough to endure hardship and suffering, at least not when you have a burning wish or desire to fulfill. When I find myself ascending to a higher dimension, and understand what I needed, I don’t mind being put back in the “cage,” being under surveillance or forced to be medicate to eventually get my freedom, because all those are only illusions. I accept and willingly…
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The Light Within Us
Post from the past 5. The collective consciousness spilled over like madness, and everyone is in intense trauma ready to release their darkness. There are chaos and such horrified unpredictable actions towards one another. People get offended quickly, and no one wants to listen to the truth. Perhaps it’s not easy to wake up to the truth, that this world has many hidden secrets which revealed to the rest of the people who are still sleeping. I have been awake for a very long time. Everything started in 2011, and I have worked with my shadows over the past few years. I have learned to balance my darkness and light.…
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Imperfection Perfect
The 18th letter to you. Dear, can you feel any change within you that reflects outward while the clock is ticking? With this year almost over, I feel empowered to be motivated and inspired by contemplating death that I become the ‘imperfection perfect’ human being after my stay at the buddhist monastery for 3 days. It was like finding scattered pieces of a jigsaw puzzle in my meditation and contemplation of death. The anxiety of swallowing solid food was my fear of death, and it was also because I was ignorant of how to express myself in my daily life that I become numb, paralyzed and tired. My anxiety to…
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Freedom Awaits.
The 15th letter to you. Dear readers, if I have any or anyone has read this blog. During my seclusion from writing and updating this blog, I have lived with novels for quite some time. I was obsessed, and my interest in reading peaked during this “lifelong” medication process from last year. I lost my creativity, and all my feelings were numb to the point I couldn’t feel emotional, leading me to stop creating altogether. It also made me think I was unsatisfied with my status quo. I want to change the status quo. I want to tear apart the walls that keep me from creating and living a life…
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Make the impossible possible.
The 14th letter to you. Dear beloved reader, Have you ever longed for a place far beyond this world where unconditional love is at the center of everyone’s hearts? Have you ever felt hopeless in a world with little integrity and dishonesty? Were you wanting to be in power and control your mind, becoming a sovereign being with your own choices instead of being manipulated for being sensitive and empathic? I once had this dream. Since I started junior high school, I have been wondering about these questions, and I had this urgent need to find the answer in my heart. Deep down in my soul, I knew there was…
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I have myself.
Post from the past 1. I don’t want to keep running in a circle or drowsy, waiting for someone to sweep me off my feet. Yeah, I’m tired of searching for gold at the end of the rainbow and hunting for an elusive love that always slips through the gap between my heart and mind. The abyss of my longing is now flowing like a river out to the big sea, and I’m leaving its shore under the sunset at the end of my craving for a relationship that will last forever. Because love came and you run for life, I’m left alone. I have come to learn that even…
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Self-discovery through life.
My 12th letter to you. Life is a journey with a set of different experiences. Myriad of emotions intertwined with one incident. The simplicity here is to see life as an opportunity for self-discovery. We are the visitor of this Earth, and because we have been here so long, we have made Earth our home. So it’s natural to us to live a life here in harmony with each other and Earth. Sometimes we might do things that are not so beneficial for all, and we, for some reason, have forgotten that we are one; what we do to others, we do to ourselves. Yet, despite being one, we are…
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The pearl of enlightenment.
My 10th letter to you. Rise, don’t let the darkness from the world pull you back from the already taken steps towards your glorious future. Look towards the horizon, the sun rises every day, and no darkness is impossible to conquer. You and I might be individuals, but we have the same goal; peace and harmony. When you stumble on your path, remember that God never gives you anything you can’t handle. You are much stronger than you think, but even in weakness, you aren’t deemed to be unworthy, not by the heavenly company of God. Therefore you can trust your ability to change when you are ready to change.…
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The illusion of heartbreak.
My 9th love letter to my Twin Ray. Dear beloved,Sometimes words fail to describe the feelings that arise within me. The spaces between silence and us hold me so warmly that I can genuinely enjoy it even if I am grieving or having a heartbreak. Heartbreaks sure aren’t something new to me, but I am experiencing it with you beside me, and it makes it all so different. My heart has been vacant after those I care for left me, yet I am here with arms wide open. I can’t predict the future, but I know that things will never be the same as they once did; there’s no promise…
"Perhaps the butterfly is proof that you can go through a great deal of darkness and still become something beautiful."
