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Enough Is Enough
The 21st letter to you. Everything feel so wrong once I feel my anxiety roars at me; my body feels wrong, my hair seems odd, my face imperfect and so on. Why is that? The only thing I could do is to sit still in silence and meditate instead of distracting myself from the anxiety. The only way out is to sit with my anxiety and feel it to release and understand why, and through letting go of the thoughts in my mind that trip me off that I could truly feel calm and peace. It’s to see the truth straight in the face instead of being afraid of meeting…
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Imperfection Perfect
The 18th letter to you. Dear, can you feel any change within you that reflects outward while the clock is ticking? With this year almost over, I feel empowered to be motivated and inspired by contemplating death that I become the ‘imperfection perfect’ human being after my stay at the buddhist monastery for 3 days. It was like finding scattered pieces of a jigsaw puzzle in my meditation and contemplation of death. The anxiety of swallowing solid food was my fear of death, and it was also because I was ignorant of how to express myself in my daily life that I become numb, paralyzed and tired. My anxiety to…
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Make the impossible possible.
The 14th letter to you. Dear beloved reader, Have you ever longed for a place far beyond this world where unconditional love is at the center of everyone’s hearts? Have you ever felt hopeless in a world with little integrity and dishonesty? Were you wanting to be in power and control your mind, becoming a sovereign being with your own choices instead of being manipulated for being sensitive and empathic? I once had this dream. Since I started junior high school, I have been wondering about these questions, and I had this urgent need to find the answer in my heart. Deep down in my soul, I knew there was…
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Self-discovery through life.
My 12th letter to you. Life is a journey with a set of different experiences. Myriad of emotions intertwined with one incident. The simplicity here is to see life as an opportunity for self-discovery. We are the visitor of this Earth, and because we have been here so long, we have made Earth our home. So it’s natural to us to live a life here in harmony with each other and Earth. Sometimes we might do things that are not so beneficial for all, and we, for some reason, have forgotten that we are one; what we do to others, we do to ourselves. Yet, despite being one, we are…
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You are me, and I am you.
My 10th love letter to my Twin Ray. Beloved, Twin RayThe ever-changing tide where waves crash to the shore makes me think of how time does change everything in this world. Time does not wait for anyone, like a ripple effect touching everyone’s life. We can neither go back to the past nor live in the future. Everything exists right now and here, as I have experienced life to be. Moments pass in the blink of an eye, yet I witness the changes within the seasons. Spring approaches where the bud is blooming, and the spring warmth caresses my cheeks. The budding of love is growing exceptionally. A soft and…
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The illusion of heartbreak.
My 9th love letter to my Twin Ray. Dear beloved,Sometimes words fail to describe the feelings that arise within me. The spaces between silence and us hold me so warmly that I can genuinely enjoy it even if I am grieving or having a heartbreak. Heartbreaks sure aren’t something new to me, but I am experiencing it with you beside me, and it makes it all so different. My heart has been vacant after those I care for left me, yet I am here with arms wide open. I can’t predict the future, but I know that things will never be the same as they once did; there’s no promise…
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Two hearts as one.
My 8th love letter to my Twin Ray. Dear Beloved,There were times I felt that the eternal frost was covering me, and time seemed to sneak away slowly without you. The gap between my heart and others was too broad. They didn’t understand me, yet I know them to the extent that I wished I could heal them from their wounds. The flow of life stagnated many times before; I couldn’t comprehend the complexities in others, how the human mind works, and why people seem to contradict themselves so much and fall out of grace. Although it was perplexing to see them say and do things incoherent, it’s all in…
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Find your own light.
My 7th letter to you. Living is more challenging than giving up life, and therefore you who keep going is a brave soul. I, too, have lived with the full test of challenging hurdles, but I never wanted to give up, because I was passionate about seeking the truth. With such a passion I have conquered much darkness, and truly understand what light can do, and whether you believe it or not, you are the light. My master, Buddha has said: Doubt everything, find your own light. I have been struggling with dark thoughts for the longest time, and when I was in despair, I remember the enlightened words my…
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The echoing of your voice.
My 7th love letter to my Twin Ray. Beloved, Twin Ray,I dreamt of you telling me the three words I had never heard anyone say, the phrase so simple but yet so profound “I love you.” The echoing of your voice lingers in my thoughts for days when I am awake. The exhilarating joy of knowing that you love me; has always loved me become my favorite love story. The world becomes my paradise, heaven on earth when you are with me. People said I live in a dream world, but this reality is as much a dream as the world I live in, and it matters not if it’s…
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I love you.
My 6th love letter to my Twin Ray. Dear beloved,Reaching the realization that you are within me, looking through my eyes, was arduous. The inkling belief that there was a love beyond this realm made me long for you, and it was that which propel me to search for you. The first taste of love in this realm broke my heart, and because my soul was kept in darkness, I had to battle the demons in my mind every night. I was tossing and turning in bed for thoughts that harassed me, and as I lay there with tears streaming down my face and with my heart aching for a…
"Perhaps the butterfly is proof that you can go through a great deal of darkness and still become something beautiful."
