Find your own light.
My 7th letter to you.
Living is more challenging than giving up life, and therefore you who keep going is a brave soul. I, too, have lived with the full test of challenging hurdles, but I never wanted to give up, because I was passionate about seeking the truth. With such a passion I have conquered much darkness, and truly understand what light can do, and whether you believe it or not, you are the light. My master, Buddha has said:
Doubt everything, find your own light.
I have been struggling with dark thoughts for the longest time, and when I was in despair, I remember the enlightened words my master had told me, the help of my higher self is also indispensable. Whether you believe in multidimensionality or that you have a higher self is up to you, but for me, it has been an experience that seals the truth of who I am. If you ever struggle to believe in your mind or not, then there’s nothing wrong in doubting what you believe is true for you, the heart knows better, and there’s always a small voice that will pull you back to sanity. If I had believed in all imaginings of dark thoughts then I wouldn’t be here where I am. The serious mental disordered illness that can confuse the mind; the diagnosis of schizophrenia paranoia was the labeled diagnosis I got from when I awoke from the biggest illusion in this world. Like taking off the tinted colored glass and see the world as it is. With all the struggling, hardship and illusionary suffering, all become clear as if the world has changed from darkness and ushered in a beaming light surrounded me. You see, the world as it is can’t be change only by one person awakening, but because of the awakening I can be the change I want to see in the world. Whether the diagnosis is serious or not, at least I am clear that good days will come to those who are faithful to the faith of God, the unconditional love. Then what’s so difficult? Nothing is difficult, and even the challenge to live as someone who wish for peace I can still wake up and continue my life as if it’s a sure thing to do. Whatever your challenges are, I hope you can also wake up and live your life to the uttermost doing the best you can, and your best is good enough and not be discourage when you encounter a hurdle. Everything will be fine, if my life could turn to the right path, I am sure your life will also turn to the best. And I hope for you a peace of mind. Doubt everything your mind tell you, doubt everything, and find your own light.
With love and blessing,
Amara T. Lam
