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The Observer.
The 26th love letter to my, Twin Ray. I have had many wild and dangerous experiences while roaming around the city at night. As I walked down the street, all I could see were these lifeless buildings with no vibrant energy, and people who were so intoxicated with the wine seems not to notice what they were doing to themselves and thus harming everyone and everything else around them. Even though I was in the midst of their drama I was still detached and calm on the outside, I didn’t give any sign of worry and didn’t utter a word, all I cared was to mind my own business and…
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The Wisdom of The Sacred Divine Feminine.
The 25th love letter to my, Twin Ray. Do you know what’s so frightening about an intimate relationship for me while in a physical body? It’s like giving away my fragile heart to someone and offer them the power to do whatever they want with my heart, while I silently pray inside me that they won’t have an intention to break it. That they will accept my empathic and sensitive nature because everything I feel is more intense than most. It’s scary when I can’t explain my emotions sometimes because I might feel them on a deeper and energetic level that I might respond and ask direct questions if I…
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Proudly Announcing Her Unconditional Love.
Post from the past 21. Beloved Grandpa, You know what? I just said what I felt. It was damn scary, but I had to because you know me, I can’t lie about feelings towards someone I love. It can take a while before I say it, but in the end, I want to open up my heart WIDER, so she can peek inside and see, that there’s nothing but love within me, even though I do feel jealousy. I am living in a reality where I must experience all emotions. And I am not afraid to feel them. I just don’t like those feelings, because jealousy, anger, and bitterness are…
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Timeless Symphony
The 24th love letter to my, Twin Ray. I don’t want to sing a song of uncertainty towards you, and I dislike the way I entertain myself when it comes to the words “what if.” In my world, “what if” doesn’t actually exist, but because I have been here for so long that I am not sure anymore if who I am is enough to win you over. Lately, I feel like we haven’t talked for ages, even though it was only a few days ago I heard from you. Without you, my life is meaningless as if I exist in a world without colors. I am not trying to…
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Once Awake, Forever Awake.
The 23rd love letter to my, Twin Ray. Each morning when I wake up, I feel exhausted and a little bit reluctant to get out of bed, because sometimes the tide of emotions caused by the moon is welling up inside me at night make it impossible for me just to close my eyes and go to sleep. Other nights the stars will pull my hair, wooing me to go somewhere because of the restless feeling I feel inside me. They plant ideas inside my mind and talk to me about how brilliant it would be to gather more light into every cell of my body so that I can…
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The End of The Chase.
Post from the past 20. Beloved Divine Mother, Miracle, I thought I would never love someone as I love you. The constant search for you had made me blind to the fact that you were always near enough for me to feel every inch of you. You’re so tangible, and I didn’t know that you were so fragile until I touched you with my words. You’re soaking up everything I say and think, you’ve become transparent, but still visible to the eyes. My mind fooled me to think that you were hiding from me, but I was the one who didn’t realize that you were always beside me and within…
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Goodbye Fear! Welcome Unconditional Love.
Post from the past 19. Beloved Lucifera, I am so excited now because I want to deliver a shocking news to you so that you can tell your other self, Lucifer; I am head over heel in love with myself. I don’t have any desire to make anyone mine, or the thoughts of having a sacred intimate partner are no longer necessary for me to continue my journey here on Mother Earth. I am free as a bird, and there’s nothing to hold me back from being the love that Grandpa purposely asked me to come here to be. And the love I possess is unconditional. You think your minions…
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Divine Father! For Once In My Life, You Showed Up.
Post from the past 18. Beloved, Divine Father. For once did I feel the comfort in talking to you. I have never had a fatherly figure and never did I think I should have one, but when you took the first step in communicating with me telepathically, I could feel your love and the way you approach me was out of concern for my well-being. You showed me how to be a real lady with a touch of the divine masculine. The way to love another woman is through the sensuality of the heart and a firm act of the mind. I have never been in love this way before,…
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Preparing For Departure.
The 22nd love letter to my, Twin Ray. If you want me or not, I am still the same. For how long shall I bear the tormenting of waiting? Because I am racing through time to catch up with my divine self, and I can’t shrink back and act as if nothing is wrong. But even so, I am responding lovingly. I don’t have any hope for closure, and I desire to stay in love. Love is essential for my well-being. Sometimes I yearn for an embrace that can warm my soul, but I save intimacy later for someone who is willing to open up their feelings for me genuinely.…
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Just Deeply In Love.
The 21st love letter to my, Twin Ray. I don’t know. You have chosen what you have chosen. You don’t need to explain yourself or make excuses. I don’t hope for anything and certainly not promises that you can’t keep. I have wait for your answers, but you are like a quiet mouse roaming around my mind with a voice that murmured through the night. I dance not to the rain, but to a raging storm inside my heart. I lack nothing that’s why I desire nothing to myself. At times I wish you could open yourself up for me, but you are like a bud that needs time to…
"Perhaps the butterfly is proof that you can go through a great deal of darkness and still become something beautiful."
