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Affection On My Fingertips
The 14th love letter to my, Twin Ray. To hear you say “I love you” is strangely distant to me. I have never once thought that words could be piling up and that my stomach knot itself in distress. I look past the dawn and see the sunrise on the horizon. You are gone, but I’m still here waiting for you to appear like a shooting star I can wish upon. I don’t fight in a war, but why do this feels like I am battling? Emotions disrupt my peace and exceeding numerous time from nowhere. I guess I can’t hide them under the rug and call it a day,…
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The Eternal Flame
The 20th letter to you. Once again I stand up from the ashes after the fire burned me, the flames that tempered my soul seared and smith me like a sharp sword; the eternal flame. You see, nothing is impossible if your mind is strong enough to endure hardship and suffering, at least not when you have a burning wish or desire to fulfill. When I find myself ascending to a higher dimension, and understand what I needed, I don’t mind being put back in the “cage,” being under surveillance or forced to be medicate to eventually get my freedom, because all those are only illusions. I accept and willingly…
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How Do I Let Go?
The 13th love letter to my, Twin Ray. Beloved, With all my frustration I don’t know what else to do but to slowly letting go and as much as I want the gap between us to shorten and with the interlude of our heartbeats I still hope it will beat in unison someday. I either sleep too much or stay up all night; there’s nothing in between. Sleep doesn’t come easy, but once I lay down on my pillow with eyes closed thoughts of you appear in a parade and demonstrate themselves like memories in mine mind. How can I let go when your fire still burns within my soul?…
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Because of You
The 12th love letter to my, Twin Ray. Hey, Are you tired of all the love letters I have written to you? I know you won’t likely respond, but still, I can’t hold myself back from writing. The sweetest note, the romantic gesture. I just want to open my chest broader so you can take a look inside my heart, and see how it beats for you. It’s pounding like crazy when you are near. And when you are absent, it just sank and sank in deep yearning. I don’t know if it is wise of me to keep harboring feelings for you, but I can’t seem to erase all…
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Make the impossible possible.
The 14th letter to you. Dear beloved reader, Have you ever longed for a place far beyond this world where unconditional love is at the center of everyone’s hearts? Have you ever felt hopeless in a world with little integrity and dishonesty? Were you wanting to be in power and control your mind, becoming a sovereign being with your own choices instead of being manipulated for being sensitive and empathic? I once had this dream. Since I started junior high school, I have been wondering about these questions, and I had this urgent need to find the answer in my heart. Deep down in my soul, I knew there was…
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The Sun and the Moon 5.
Chapter 5. The room became quiet and dark at night, and Lauren had difficulty falling asleep. The one lying beside her was the girl she had a crush on, and it felt like everything she did would disturb her, and she felt a bit anxious with thousand of thoughts in her mind. She could hear the even breathing beside her, and her heart accelerated. Lauren lay beside her stiffly and tried to close her eyes to sleep, but suddenly felt there was a small voice that talked to her, clamoring her to awaken. It was telling her the importance of the presence beside her. Lauren was unsure but felt it…
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The Sun and the Moon 2.
Chapter 2. Lauren took the cigarette and a coffee out to the balcony wearing the bathrobe. While she sat down to enjoy her morning routine, the phone beside her started to beep. ［Carol] Coffee? It was a simple word with a question mark, but Lauren could understand its meaning. After shaking her head because of Carol’s curiosity, she replied. [Lauren] You are early. I am having one right now. Come over? After a long while, there was no reply, and Lauren thought she probably was too lazy to come or busy with something else and went on to the bathroom to shower. ［Carol] I will be there within 10 minutes.…
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The Sun and the Moon 1.
Chapter 1. Lauren wore a green top covered with a white shirt, ripped jeans, and white flat shoes. Leaning against the pillar, she exudes an aura that intimidates whoever is trying to come in contact with her. Hence no one approaches her. The noisy sound of music deafened her ears, and she grew restless. She went to this bar to get closer to the girl she currently has feelings for, but she quickly realized that it was a bad idea. The girl she liked was now too busy standing behind the bar counter and serving drinks, and it was difficult to strike a conversation. She met her not long ago…
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You are me, and I am you.
My 10th love letter to my Twin Ray. Beloved, Twin RayThe ever-changing tide where waves crash to the shore makes me think of how time does change everything in this world. Time does not wait for anyone, like a ripple effect touching everyone’s life. We can neither go back to the past nor live in the future. Everything exists right now and here, as I have experienced life to be. Moments pass in the blink of an eye, yet I witness the changes within the seasons. Spring approaches where the bud is blooming, and the spring warmth caresses my cheeks. The budding of love is growing exceptionally. A soft and…
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The illusion of heartbreak.
My 9th love letter to my Twin Ray. Dear beloved,Sometimes words fail to describe the feelings that arise within me. The spaces between silence and us hold me so warmly that I can genuinely enjoy it even if I am grieving or having a heartbreak. Heartbreaks sure aren’t something new to me, but I am experiencing it with you beside me, and it makes it all so different. My heart has been vacant after those I care for left me, yet I am here with arms wide open. I can’t predict the future, but I know that things will never be the same as they once did; there’s no promise…
"Perhaps the butterfly is proof that you can go through a great deal of darkness and still become something beautiful."
