The Eternal Flame

The 20th letter to you.

Once again I stand up from the ashes after the fire burned me, the flames that tempered my soul seared and smith me like a sharp sword; the eternal flame. You see, nothing is impossible if your mind is strong enough to endure hardship and suffering, at least not when you have a burning wish or desire to fulfill.

When I find myself ascending to a higher dimension, and understand what I needed, I don’t mind being put back in the “cage,” being under surveillance or forced to be medicate to eventually get my freedom, because all those are only illusions. I accept and willingly getting treatment, even though the girl in me used to wish to live without medication. But to ascend is to see all things in the world is a play acting out, and illusion is to forget who I am.

But I believe at the end of all suffering, you learned, you accumulated experiences and once you become aware that you are worth all the good in the world, and suffering more will only be unnecessary, you will stop your suffering with awareness. You are conscious to choose liberation from your suffering, you will end suffering through trial, through challenges, and being optimistic about the future because your mind finally clears up to know that you’ve suffered enough; enough is enough. Why dwell more on the past and live your life as if you have no choice? The myriads of possibility in this world is millions or billions, so many different ways to do, to be and to choose from, the universe is vast enough for all of us. So why live as if you are only a speck of dust? You are a star. Shining so brillantly, even your soul glow so faintly, you are still a star among stars.

So I heed my wish as a human being to slow down the process of healing, until my mental health are on par with my spirit, until I can balance doing and being seamlessy so that I won’t be unsure of myself to carry the mission I am here to do. Carry the crown that was bestow upon me with diginity and nobility, to bear it with my head held high.

I am not here to attract attention to myself by doing anything special, or gain fame or fortune. I am here to just live a simple life by being who I am, with the desire for harmony and peace amongst the people in this world.

My everyday is to incoparate the teaching I have learned through trial and experiences, sprinkle golden rays of beaming light towards everyone on my way and all the living beings, nothing more but to simply share my optimism for a better future and extend kindness and compassion. This, I truly believe I can do even though I am only one person.

I’m brimming with joy just to know I am growing day by day, and shine day by day. I might be a ray of light beaming my joy with the sun.

I leave you with my kind words,
Amara T. Lam