What box?
My 2nd letter to you.
Honestly, I feel like bearing humanity on my shoulder and want to make it better for everyone, but I am only one, how much can I do? Therefore I thought doing it my way, to reach out to those who came in contact with me, maybe it will help spread the light and love that I am here to deliver. I have many friends that I care about, and I love to help them with their burdens and feed them the food I make. It’s not because they are my friends that I want to do these things, but because I am the love, unconditional love that I feel it’s appropriate to do so.
Many times I have heard that maybe I need to come in contact with people more and do activities, I have considered it, but if to ask me to follow some kind of form of activity without the freedom to switch in between made me feel restricted, because like a butterfly, I can’t sit still for so long, but when I am focus I can sit for hours doing one activity. That’s why I feel some kind of dilemma of being alone or going to school and others gathering that hold activity so that I can come out and reach out to more people. I can’t be put in a box, I don’t even know the concept of a box or where the box is, all I know is that I am different and wish to be free to do whatever inspires me to do within that moment. This world is already full of restrictions, and I don’t want to restrict myself any further by looking and finding something to do with others because even others have their own thing they probably want to do. Therefore, I would like to be independent, but at the same time not excluded. Is it possible? I think it’s possible, for a while I want to be and balance it with doing and see how things will be like for me. Other than that, I don’t wish to stress myself up because of other “expectations” of me, even though maybe no one expects anything from me, it’s only what I think. Have you ever thought of it? That someone expects something from you, other than having a good time and living a good life? Even that in itself is expectation. Ah, life, you said then, but then I said, whatever, let’s take a day at a time, a moment at a time. Whatever inspires me to do, I will certainly do it, like this letter today. Everything was arranged for me to have this amplify of time to do whatever I would like, but deep down there’s a voice that says, you don’t need to do anything, just be who you are, that’s more than enough. Therefore, I am, who I am, without anything extra added, but anything else attains is freedom and peace, joy and ease.
Whatever and whoever that comes my way, I will reach out with love, but if it doesn’t happen that way, let’s us stay away from vexing people who don’t seem like they want us any good. Because there are more or less 7 billion people out there with different personalities and thinking, if possible, I would love to heal all at once. *Sigh* It’s just how it is when it comes to me. I don’t know about you, but I hope you are doing well and have a life that brings you much love and light.
With love and blessings.
Amara T. Lam
