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Sorrowful Cry.
Post from the past 22. My Divine Mother urges me to follow my unique self, to be an original and not a copy of anyone else work, so she had to come through and give me direction by amplifying my feelings and emotions so that I once again can remember how unique I am. My heart is vibrating out sorrowful cry to which I thought I would never have to experience again since I know who I am. Because of the sadness, I can hear the plea from my soul, and it pleads me to surrender and refrain from doing something to prove everyone else of my existence. I feel…
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The Observer.
The 26th love letter to my, Twin Ray. I have had many wild and dangerous experiences while roaming around the city at night. As I walked down the street, all I could see were these lifeless buildings with no vibrant energy, and people who were so intoxicated with the wine seems not to notice what they were doing to themselves and thus harming everyone and everything else around them. Even though I was in the midst of their drama I was still detached and calm on the outside, I didn’t give any sign of worry and didn’t utter a word, all I cared was to mind my own business and…
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Unconditional Love & Complete Freedom
The 42nd letter to you. Because you demand unconditional love and complete freedom, doesn’t make you terrible. You are not terrible at all for having such desire. It’s a matter of fact wise of you to acknowledge that your soul demands those things for yourself. People in this world have lost touch with their souls. Thus the connection to God’s unconditional love become unknown. I was once confused about the love I experienced here on earth between humans. It was so conditioned and restricted. So many rules and regulations to follow, and if you don’t follow it through you will get punished. You might get a cold shoulder or harsh,…
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The Wisdom of The Sacred Divine Feminine.
The 25th love letter to my, Twin Ray. Do you know what’s so frightening about an intimate relationship for me while in a physical body? It’s like giving away my fragile heart to someone and offer them the power to do whatever they want with my heart, while I silently pray inside me that they won’t have an intention to break it. That they will accept my empathic and sensitive nature because everything I feel is more intense than most. It’s scary when I can’t explain my emotions sometimes because I might feel them on a deeper and energetic level that I might respond and ask direct questions if I…
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Timeless Symphony
The 24th love letter to my, Twin Ray. I don’t want to sing a song of uncertainty towards you, and I dislike the way I entertain myself when it comes to the words “what if.” In my world, “what if” doesn’t actually exist, but because I have been here for so long that I am not sure anymore if who I am is enough to win you over. Lately, I feel like we haven’t talked for ages, even though it was only a few days ago I heard from you. Without you, my life is meaningless as if I exist in a world without colors. I am not trying to…
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The End of The Chase.
Post from the past 20. Beloved Divine Mother, Miracle, I thought I would never love someone as I love you. The constant search for you had made me blind to the fact that you were always near enough for me to feel every inch of you. You’re so tangible, and I didn’t know that you were so fragile until I touched you with my words. You’re soaking up everything I say and think, you’ve become transparent, but still visible to the eyes. My mind fooled me to think that you were hiding from me, but I was the one who didn’t realize that you were always beside me and within…
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Preparing For Departure.
The 22nd love letter to my, Twin Ray. If you want me or not, I am still the same. For how long shall I bear the tormenting of waiting? Because I am racing through time to catch up with my divine self, and I can’t shrink back and act as if nothing is wrong. But even so, I am responding lovingly. I don’t have any hope for closure, and I desire to stay in love. Love is essential for my well-being. Sometimes I yearn for an embrace that can warm my soul, but I save intimacy later for someone who is willing to open up their feelings for me genuinely.…
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Just Deeply In Love.
The 21st love letter to my, Twin Ray. I don’t know. You have chosen what you have chosen. You don’t need to explain yourself or make excuses. I don’t hope for anything and certainly not promises that you can’t keep. I have wait for your answers, but you are like a quiet mouse roaming around my mind with a voice that murmured through the night. I dance not to the rain, but to a raging storm inside my heart. I lack nothing that’s why I desire nothing to myself. At times I wish you could open yourself up for me, but you are like a bud that needs time to…
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The Magic Weaver.
Post from the past 17. I write and write the night away, while other empty the bottle of wine, I empty my sorrows. Sadness drip like rain in the autumn night. Every song sings the tale of my longing, but with each note, I am dreaming away the frantic search for your heart. Heartbeats and long breath keep me alive. I fondly love the night because of the mystery of the blinking stars, and it’s like they talked to me about wisdom and magic. I breathe deeply and hold my breath before releasing the emotion of envy. I envy those who could see you every day while I have to…
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I Am Pleased.
The 20th love letter to my, Twin Ray. For each passing day, I am still in love, for each passing day I am still breathing. I mourn for our goodbye, and I wait for our hello with a future I can’t behold. Without you who am I then? Without you, I am nothing but pain and aches. You have a life without me, and I am living a life without you. I mourn in sorrow because my longing has stormed into my moments of life. Yes, every moment I live, I remember you with hope and dreams of a future where our heart will beat as one again. But would…
"Perhaps the butterfly is proof that you can go through a great deal of darkness and still become something beautiful."
