Make the impossible possible.
The 14th letter to you.
Dear beloved reader,
Have you ever longed for a place far beyond this world where unconditional love is at the center of everyone’s hearts? Have you ever felt hopeless in a world with little integrity and dishonesty?
Were you wanting to be in power and control your mind, becoming a sovereign being with your own choices instead of being manipulated for being sensitive and empathic?
I once had this dream. Since I started junior high school, I have been wondering about these questions, and I had this urgent need to find the answer in my heart. Deep down in my soul, I knew there was something called unconditional love. To see this truth and answers, I have been wandering around most of my life to find, first, looking outside myself, but the more I look around outside myself, the more confused and agitated I become.
I met many people along the way, both temporary and permanent friendships. Although many of them didn’t have the answer I was looking for, they did play a part in triggering things within me I needed to heal.
As time passed, I embarked on a road of no return. It all started with the dark night of the soul and later the soul’s journey into light. All these were destined for me to go through to find the peace and truth I was craving. We all will go through some darkness to see the light at some point. Maybe not the same experiences and paths, but it’s overall the same destination.
The journey was arduous; I stumbled a few times and shed tears because of the pain of loneliness. I sought love and affirmation through other people outside of myself. I had no self-worth and believed that if someone else loved me or got into a romantic relationship, I would be worth it or at least loved. I thought that was the ultimate happiness in my life if I could achieve that. But then I discovered that it leads to more suffering than happiness—the agony of trying to fit in and be like everyone else. Being rejected over and over again leads to frustration. In the end, I became bitter, but I knew deep down it wasn’t what I wanted. I thought there must be something far beyond that I hadn’t found yet.
It took me nearly two decades before I found the answer. The truth lies within me when I become aware of my consciousness. The light is within me, as well as unconditional love. I figured out that I need to accept myself first of all, that there is no one else like me. At first, I wanted to attain love, peace, and happiness to be happy, peaceful, and joyful. Still, the truth is, these things didn’t need me to attain; instead, I needed to lose fear, anger, suffering, and dislike for who I am. All else will come naturally because I am already what I seek. I am the eternal light, soul, unconditional love, and much more than I thought.
All came with acceptance for who I was and then losing all I wasn’t to be who I am. Being sensitive and empathic is inherited; no one can manipulate me once I know who I am. No one can make you do anything without your consent as long as you know what you want and who you are.
Darkness is temporary, like all else. The sun will always rise, and there will always be a tomorrow if today is hard. So there’s nothing to fear. All illusion will cease when you find your light within.
All these are possible. Because I am and you are. All that is.
