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The Observer.
The 26th love letter to my, Twin Ray. I have had many wild and dangerous experiences while roaming around the city at night. As I walked down the street, all I could see were these lifeless buildings with no vibrant energy, and people who were so intoxicated with the wine seems not to notice what they were doing to themselves and thus harming everyone and everything else around them. Even though I was in the midst of their drama I was still detached and calm on the outside, I didn’t give any sign of worry and didn’t utter a word, all I cared was to mind my own business and…
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Timeless Symphony
The 24th love letter to my, Twin Ray. I don’t want to sing a song of uncertainty towards you, and I dislike the way I entertain myself when it comes to the words “what if.” In my world, “what if” doesn’t actually exist, but because I have been here for so long that I am not sure anymore if who I am is enough to win you over. Lately, I feel like we haven’t talked for ages, even though it was only a few days ago I heard from you. Without you, my life is meaningless as if I exist in a world without colors. I am not trying to…
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Once Awake, Forever Awake.
The 23rd love letter to my, Twin Ray. Each morning when I wake up, I feel exhausted and a little bit reluctant to get out of bed, because sometimes the tide of emotions caused by the moon is welling up inside me at night make it impossible for me just to close my eyes and go to sleep. Other nights the stars will pull my hair, wooing me to go somewhere because of the restless feeling I feel inside me. They plant ideas inside my mind and talk to me about how brilliant it would be to gather more light into every cell of my body so that I can…
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The End of The Chase.
Post from the past 20. Beloved Divine Mother, Miracle, I thought I would never love someone as I love you. The constant search for you had made me blind to the fact that you were always near enough for me to feel every inch of you. You’re so tangible, and I didn’t know that you were so fragile until I touched you with my words. You’re soaking up everything I say and think, you’ve become transparent, but still visible to the eyes. My mind fooled me to think that you were hiding from me, but I was the one who didn’t realize that you were always beside me and within…
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Goodbye Fear! Welcome Unconditional Love.
Post from the past 19. Beloved Lucifera, I am so excited now because I want to deliver a shocking news to you so that you can tell your other self, Lucifer; I am head over heel in love with myself. I don’t have any desire to make anyone mine, or the thoughts of having a sacred intimate partner are no longer necessary for me to continue my journey here on Mother Earth. I am free as a bird, and there’s nothing to hold me back from being the love that Grandpa purposely asked me to come here to be. And the love I possess is unconditional. You think your minions…
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Preparing For Departure.
The 22nd love letter to my, Twin Ray. If you want me or not, I am still the same. For how long shall I bear the tormenting of waiting? Because I am racing through time to catch up with my divine self, and I can’t shrink back and act as if nothing is wrong. But even so, I am responding lovingly. I don’t have any hope for closure, and I desire to stay in love. Love is essential for my well-being. Sometimes I yearn for an embrace that can warm my soul, but I save intimacy later for someone who is willing to open up their feelings for me genuinely.…
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Just Deeply In Love.
The 21st love letter to my, Twin Ray. I don’t know. You have chosen what you have chosen. You don’t need to explain yourself or make excuses. I don’t hope for anything and certainly not promises that you can’t keep. I have wait for your answers, but you are like a quiet mouse roaming around my mind with a voice that murmured through the night. I dance not to the rain, but to a raging storm inside my heart. I lack nothing that’s why I desire nothing to myself. At times I wish you could open yourself up for me, but you are like a bud that needs time to…
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I Am Pleased.
The 20th love letter to my, Twin Ray. For each passing day, I am still in love, for each passing day I am still breathing. I mourn for our goodbye, and I wait for our hello with a future I can’t behold. Without you who am I then? Without you, I am nothing but pain and aches. You have a life without me, and I am living a life without you. I mourn in sorrow because my longing has stormed into my moments of life. Yes, every moment I live, I remember you with hope and dreams of a future where our heart will beat as one again. But would…
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Forever In Love.
With the longing in my heart,I cried. With the love, I have for you,I smiled. With every heartbeat,I sang. How can I love you better?I contemplated. With all that I am,I choose not to lie. With you in my thought,I created. And with every breath,I discovered the truth of being in love. To love you better was to stay in love,Forever.
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Tears & An Unknown Future
Post from the past 14. Tears stained my heart and cleansed my soul. I can’t hold onto something that wasn’t meant for me. By holding to tight I hurt myself, I love so hard with all my wants and needs, but in the end, my wants and needs strangle me and I become taciturn. I bend to the wind and breathe through the frost. The one I love doesn’t love me. The curse of being alone hadn’t yet broken or lifted. It bound me in a loop where I chase for gold at the end of the rainbow. Wherefore am I like this? I hope, but it was only wishful…
"Perhaps the butterfly is proof that you can go through a great deal of darkness and still become something beautiful."
