Post From The Past
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Illuminated
Post from the past 12. I daydream with eyes open, seeing the future before me with a handful of memories from the past. Dim the light for tonight, because I have invited the moon and stars through my window, they are loyal to the very end of each night hearing my lament in their presence. I count the days, but time keeps slipping through my fingers like sand in an hourglass. Dim the light for tonight, so the moonlight could seep through the curtains and sing me a lullaby, a song so familiar that my heart falls at ease. For each season, a new hope is born. Just like when…
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There’s No Separation.
Post from the past 11. After the ending of my search for romance, I feel a sudden need to embrace the world of illusion. I fold out my arms and embrace our separation and feel you are closer to me than you have ever been. I realized I could live with a smile even if I’m alone. If my world seems to crumble and fall apart, it’s because it was made out of false substance, but the separateness for once felt more like a kaleidoscope full of colors and images. I’m standing at the end of the bridge and behind me is a sun that shines so ever bright that…
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Letting Go.
Post from the past 10. The moment I walked away I couldn’t stop my tears from falling. It was the hardest thing I have ever done to someone I love. But I realize if I don’t let go, I might fake happiness, and I was never good at pretending, not when I feel the intensity of my emotion. The moment I say goodbye I died a little inside and all that was left was ache and pain. I don’t know if it was my stubbornness or a foolish attempt to hold on, but whatever reason it was, it was never to hurt someone that means the world to me. Letting…
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Her Presence.
Post of the past 9. I adore her. I don’t know if she knows that I see her with admiration. I love the way she presents herself. She is quite young but wise for her age. There is something about her that I can’t tell. She’s a rebel and unique without being over the top. Oh, don’t take me wrong, she dresses very well, you would be stunned by her looks. It’s how she carries herself that you will not but gasp for air. I love the way she walks and talks. She seems like she is never in a hurry, she moves with such grace and style. Inside the…
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Goodbye Addiction.
Post from the past 8. I have fallen like an angel who broke her wings, wings made of raw bones etched into my soul which entrapped the body inside the heart with a promise of free will once ridden of toxic. Hands shake and mouth shivers with lungs as black as night, craving another cigarette. I can’t lit you up tonight baby, because life is haunting me, threatening me with death if I once again inhale chemicals and toxic like I do with oxygen. I held onto you and watched you crumble between my fingers. I destroyed you as vengeance because you cheat me of those precious moments of my…
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Goodbye.
Post from the past 7. Memories threads through a red string attached to my little finger, along with the line I found it was knotted loosely around your foot, so loose that I barely felt that you have long ago walked away. I have fallen so many times for the wrong person, so many times that I wished you would be the last; however, I never expected that you weren’t the one for me. I have come to realize, I’m not right for you, and to hear the sound of your footsteps walking away from me is saddening, but what I also know is that life moves on. The red…
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Fountain of Love
Post from the past 6. Somewhere I belong to the desert land, anywhere else I can’t find the thirst to understand what love is. Because love is like water, it’s so rare in the desert that it makes me more grateful when I finally find the fountain within myself. If I lost myself and my heart, I’ll not bow down and feel defeated but stay strong and keep the faith. Look at the sky; many clouds could go awry in a blink of an eye, make raindrops fall slowly down the earth, but still, the sky stay the same. Who can be sure of what tomorrow might bring, and who…
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The Light Within Us
Post from the past 5. The collective consciousness spilled over like madness, and everyone is in intense trauma ready to release their darkness. There are chaos and such horrified unpredictable actions towards one another. People get offended quickly, and no one wants to listen to the truth. Perhaps it’s not easy to wake up to the truth, that this world has many hidden secrets which revealed to the rest of the people who are still sleeping. I have been awake for a very long time. Everything started in 2011, and I have worked with my shadows over the past few years. I have learned to balance my darkness and light.…
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Heaven on Earth
Post from the past 4. Why do you believe you are living on earth? You must open your eyes to see heaven and not hide in the illusion. The day and the night are like two sides of the same coin, defined, but you must know dreams doesn’t care if your eyes are shut asleep or open in the light. The road ahead may seem long, but eventually, you will see beyond the horizon where meadow and hills are rising to touch the sky. Climb the mountain or swim in the ocean, sit still or run, you will reach your destination in no time. Time doesn’t exist so why fear?…
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Your Shine
Post from the past 3. Your beauty is exquisite, like a painting which I don’t get tired of looking. With you I am never bored, there are so much in your mind I want to explore, and I marvel at how you can wake up to another morning and make the world better for your loved ones. The nearest way to touch you now is through my words, and the closest way for you to see me is through these sentences. Look closely, I have changed, and it was all because of you. You turned my world upside down, and fortunately, all these changes have made me more me, and…
