Post from the past 21. Beloved Grandpa, You know what? I just said what I felt. It was damn scary, but I had to because you know me, I can’t lie about feelings towards someone I love. It can take a while before I say it, but in the end, I want to open up my heart WIDER, so she can peek inside and see, that there’s nothing but love within me, even though I do feel jealousy. I am living in a reality where I must experience all emotions. And I am not afraid to feel them. I just don’t like those feelings, because jealousy, anger, and bitterness are…